Universitá Firenze

So, I sometimes think about colleges, and what major I want to study. I understand that I have three years to go, but I just know that time passes quickly. I also realize how hard it is to really find out what you want to do. I can't even imagine how stressful it must be for the seniors, or the people who are re-educating themselves, especially with the global issues right now, and the change in president. It must be really hard to focus and think of the world as an inviting place to study. However, I have also discovered that the world is open with opportunities that are waiting for you to take them. I love experiencing new things and learning different things, and opportunities that allow me to achieve both of these in one are perfect for me. I do not know what you enjoy doing but I love being with nature and just taking time off from my everyday routine so I love going to Summer camps, or travelling, or simply hanging out with someone. I learn so much from simply eating dinner with one of my friends. If you pay attention to what people say, you can really take away what kind of person they are. You can also listen to what a person isn't saying. There's a passage which my Summer camp that I attended this year recited, and it is originally in Swedish but I will translate it.  "Don't let yourself be fooled by the face I show because I have thousands of masks and none of them are me.Don't be fooled, for God's sake don't be fooled.I give you an impression of being secure and that confidence is my name and cool calm are my actions. And that I don't need anyone, but don't trust me.Deep inside my true self dwells in confusion, fear, and loneliness. Therefore, I created a mask to hide behind and protect me from those looks that know. But that exact look, is my saviorThat means, that if it follows by acceptance, then it follows by love. That is the only thing that can free me from the prison walls I built myself. I am scared that deep inside not being anything and that I am not anything to have and that you will realize this and push me away.So the parade of masquerade begins. Constantly I small talk with you. I can confirm everything that doesn't mean anything but nothing about what means everything, what yells inside of me.Please be nice and listen carefully and try to hear what I am not saying.I would like to be true and spontaneous and myself but first you need to help me. You need to reach out your hand. Every time you are nice, caring, and encouraging, every time you try to understand because you actually care, then my heart begins to receive wings. Very brittle wings, but wings.With your sensitivity and sympathy and your ability to understand the only thing that can free me from my shadowed world of insecurity from the abandonment in my prison.It will not be easy for you, the closer you come to me the blinder I hit back maybe.But I have heard that love is stronger than thick walls, and there lies my hope, my only hope.I pray, try to tear these walls with solid hands but gentle hands - because a child is very sensitive.Who am I you may ask?I am someone you know very well.Because I am every man you meet and I am every woman you meet and I am also yourself."Anonymous Hopefully this passage also taught you something. If you speak swedish and would like the swedish version it can be find by clicking here. I think it contains an important message and that's what I really think of as I speak to people. I am sorry if this post is just all over the place, but I felt like just writing everything that came to my mind this second, and this was it.XOXO,G