February

January sure was a proper rollercoaster of emotions, thoughts, assignments, pressures and happiness. I'm not sure how January went by that fast and slowly at the same time, but somehow it's already February. The feelings I had around graduation are gone, mostly due to the fact that I had the distance course to concentrate on. But also because I finally realised I shouldn't compare my life to other people's, I am gong to do what is right for me right now, and then we'll see where that takes me.   On the 18th I'll actually go to Edinburgh, staying until the 1st of March, and then taking the train to London to stay there for a month. I am so nervous about everything that could go wrong, but also very excited over how amazing it could be. So I'll be living in the UK for 40 days and then leave the UK right after they leave the EU; quite fitting I should say. But honestly, I'm nervous as hell. I know I did this 4 years ago and stayed for a much longer period then, but I think I've gotten more frightened and anxious with age. I'm constantly inbetween feelings of an impending doom and of future happiness. You never know what's going to happen, but I'm sure it'll be good (deep down I think so at least). I just want to say; welcome February, bring it on!