It all comes and goes in circles.

Three and a half years apart.  Three and a half years in my heart. I expected that it would be a fun, difficult, sad, proud and crazy time; these last few days before graduation. What I didn't realise was how much it would affect me emotionally. I probably should have guessed that by now, as I am quite sensitive and emotional at my best; depressed and anxious at my worst. But I didn't know I'd go back to using exactly the same coping strategies as I did right before my last graduation (in upper secondary school). I'm listening to Coldplay and Ed Sheeran, watching Sherlock and sad films whilst crying my eyes out. I didn't think I'd ever have to  revert back to being eighteen all over again, but here I am, a full five years later. It's a full on life crisis, once again. What am I to do with my life? What can I do with my life? What do I want? With the extra addition that by 20th of January I am officially unemployed. I do have that part-time course, but will it be enough? Will I be enough? Would anybody dare to employ me in the future? Where do I want to be employed? Where should I live? Where do I want to live? Am I really fit enough to work now, with my stress-related issues? Doubts, doubts, doubts. When will it end...?Nobody knows. But that's also the beauty of it, don't you think?