Sometimes i need to choke

I wish I could finally inhale and exhale freelybut sometimes I need to chokeI need to be reminded that this is not another formulated system I've come upon in order to feel acceptedOr maybe it isBecause I've become pretty good at keeping my demons at bayAnd I always tell myself I got them to go awayBut every time I move on to a new point in my lifeI want them to stayAnd everyday I'll invite them into my home stupidly just so I don't feel so aloneCause now I'm drowningHoping somebody comes byOr sees me as something worth saving